A shroud of loneliness and despair envelope my senses.
My God and Lord, why does Thou seem so far away?
Why does Thy Word not refresh?
Why so downcast O my soul?

Shadows loom around, they threaten to darken whatever little light that's still glowing.
My hands and feet hurt from chains that bind me. Chains that seem destined to bind me for life.
The burden on my back grows heavier and heavier--sadly, it doesn't seem to be cross-shaped.

What little strength I have ebbs away...

Someone once said I was an extremely emotional person. Too emotional. Another said I'm a person alive with passion. Whatever the case, the zest for life, for living, for running this race wanes... I end up going through the motions, the systems set out before me. Keeping busy for the sake of it. The crop of genuine smiles grows thin. Enthusiasm's boosted by the need for it, not something that stems from joy.

The Cross, the mighty Cross... I have disappointed my Lord.

This blog was an area where I hope I could encourage others. It was an area where my honest feelings and lessons learnt was shared. Now, as I know little of how to encourage... entries will cease to exist...